It's been a while

Haven't posted in a while, sorry. I can't even tell you what week of my recovery I'm at...but I've passed the 4 month mark now. I don't count weeks anymore because nothing else exciting really happens at any particular point in my recovery.
I'm starting to be able to cross my right leg over my left a little. Having not done this in over a year has made my muscles/tendons/ligaments in glute shorten so I'm working on stretching them out and boy can I feel it! It's a good feeling to be able to do this, but so wierd how things have changed! I'm still working on doing the stretches I've been doing for months now. I'm sure it's from the dislocation, but I just can't seem to get rid of the discomfort in my hip flexors. I've been going to the gym more often, even getting in a class every once in a while. I still can't do all that goes on in the class, but just going makes me feel better. I typically stick to the exercise bike, eliptical and the tred mill. I do about 10 minutes on each to get different range of motions in. I'm not having any difficulty on any of the machines and running doesn't give me any problems! Last time at the gym I'm pretty sure I saw a fellow hip surgery victim, but didn't say anything. I just wouldn't expect a guy to mount a bike like I saw this guy do, so i'm guessing he's in my boat!

My head is playing games with me lately. There are days where I've having second thoughts about this upcoming surgery and then days that I'm ready to get it over with. Sometimes I feel like I don't need it, then I move the wrong way and that reassures me that I do. Then I feel pretty crappy and think I need the surgery, but don't think I'm far enough in my recovery on the right side to be 100% positive that this surgery is going to be my cure-all. I would hate to have gone through surgery 2x's and then still have to have the other yucky procedure done (i'll spare the details of that one until a later time). This is what happens when I have too much time to think about things. I'm sure all things will work themselves out in the end. We'll see how I'm feeling about it next time I get around to posting!

The more time that goes by, the more I'm hearing of those around me going through the same ordeal. I don't like hearing that others have to go through this too, but at least I know I'm not alone. Best of luck to those having surgery soon and those just recovering from the surgery!